Thinking Positive

I enjoy my job, on most days. As with any job, however, I do get a bit discouraged, and of course irritated. I am not actively pursuing a change in employment. With today’s economy I am basically just thankful to be gainfully employed. In the past couple of weeks I have been asked to apply for a couple of open positions. The opportunities have been very appealing and I have submitted my resume. I was excited about the prospects of the first position when the recruiter from the placement agency requested a pre-interview to find a match for their client. The potential employer offered an attractive compensation package. During my interview the recruiter informed me that I was the best candidate and he would present my resume to his client. The next day I was told that, unbeknownst to the recruiter, their client filled the position. I was disappointed but not surprised. I had hoped I would be offered the job but I pretty much knew that it wouldn’t work out for me. I think that the position was out of my league; too good to be true for me.

Now I shouldn’t get my hopes up that the most recent position will be offered to me either. It has an even better compensation package and is in the non-profit industry. I was previously employed in this industry and I did find it rewarding, and at times stressful. Maybe my lack of self confidence will keep me from being offered this position but I honestly believe that I will not have a better career at this time. I suppose that I should have more faith in myself and be more positive. And yet, that old familiar pattern of self doubt creeps back in and I convince myself that hoping for this opportunity is simply a pipe dream. Think positive, think positive, think positive... Okay, I am positive that I am going to be thankful that I am gainfully employed in a position that, on most days, I do enjoy and it pays the bills.