Second Childhood?

Some days I feel my age, some days I feel old, but most of the time I feel like a kid. Or maybe I just act like one. I strive to be childlike and not childish. There is, however, a thin line that separates the two. Most of the time I am balancing on that line, teetering dangerously close, but trying not to cross it. If only the line were delineated more clearly, then I would know that I have gone too far. Inevitably in relationships, my toe inches across that point and does not seem to stop. I am fine until my mouth falls into the land of childishness.

Today is a perfect example of toeing the line. My significant other and I have been disagreeing a lot lately. He thinks he is perfect and I know I am less than perfect. He assumes he is always right and I admit I am wrong but try to make things right. I have attempted to be a reasonable grownup. I have debated a fair fight to no avail. It frustrates me to reason with someone that will not listen to reason. When the rational approach doesn’t work I ultimately sink to a new level. I become so disheartened by the sheer craziness of it all I jump in the boat to reside in Crazy Town with him. I know the importance of coffee in his life; not because I ever drink it. It is just a fact. So, what did I do? I grabbed the coffee off the shelf and hid it. I didn’t resort to breaking anything valuable. I simply wanted to inconvenience the man I had claimed to love. Now this may seem like a trivial, insignificant action on my part, but I must say that it worked. It took practically no time at all for my cell phone to ring this morning while I was at work to ask me what I did to his coffee.

“What coffee?” I innocently responded. “Oh, the coffee I dropped on the floor and had to clean up?” I lied. After we hung up a slow smile spread mischievously across my childish face. I pictured him pulling on his coat, hopping into a freezing car and driving down the street to get a nice cup of coffee. Score one for the kid. My work here is done. Time to get the hell out of Crazy Town. But I am positive that I will visit again……..

AND SOON!!